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1. |
all we ever wanted
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all we ever wanted was a life
of happy moments
all we ever wanted was a life
of silence
all we ever wanted was a life
for us to live inside of
all we ever wanted was a life
these days, i find it hard to try and stabilise
to save a life that won't fight back
with a knot in my chest, i let go of my stress
in a mushroom cloud; i blow sky high
screaming let me die, let me die
i am not the one
who decided that my path would be so long
full of winding surprises
and we all need someone to hold or to blame
and i need you
all we ever wanted was a life
of happy moments
all we ever wanted was a life
of silence
all we ever wanted was a life
for us to live inside of
all we ever wanted was a life
crying out to the sky for no response
i’ve been trapped inside my dangerous thoughts
i’ve been losing my mind lately
my only hope is if i can save me
one two three let me breathe all on my own
two three four heaven’s door with nothing to show
one two three life for me all i request
two three four nothing more send me to rest
one two three let me breathe all on my own (i don’t ask for much, all that i want)
two three four heaven’s door with nothing to show (is just a life of peace abundant)
one two three life for me all i request (what’d i do wrong? why can’t i just)
two three four nothing more send me to rest (get my request and live how i want)
all we ever wanted was a life
of happy moments (it's all i ever wanted)
all we ever wanted was a life
of silence (all i ever wanted was)
all we ever wanted was a life
for us to live inside of (it's all i ever wanted)
all we ever wanted was a life
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2. |
pain without purpose
04:45
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standing on the corner i got demons, dreamin
close my eyes, i can see them, scheming
scared of the first move
rope in my closet i can't tie it, hide it
deny i ever knew where time went, biding
just for something to do
i know it hurt when the people saw right into you
your soul laid on display
a golden tapestry, pattern seeking, i had faith in you
i still do, i still do
even snow falling from the trees feels like raindrops
tucked away inside until the rain stops
what's pain without purpose?
the sizzle of misty power lines
like a buzz that softly says that you're still on my mind
just a little light of mine
but now the bulb's shattered
there's glass around my feet
but i keep moving forward with the memories i keep
because pain ain't pain if it ain't remembered
moments seem so fleeting in my rear view mirror
but we're much further than we might appear
and further every day
i'm giving you my body, sending bones in the mail
texting flesh and blood
i hope that's enough
even snow falling from the leaves feels like raindrops
tucked away inside until the rain stops
what's pain without purpose?
[when the skin is cut, blood vessels are also damaged and blood seeps into the wound cavity where it clots. later, the cells in the cut edges start to multiply and migrate into the clot; at the same time macrophages enter the wounded area and begin to remove dead cells. the fiber and strands in the clot shrink, pulling the edges closer together]
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3. |
giving up
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i wrote the book on giving up
i wrote the book on giving up
can't decide where to finish it
i'm sick and tired of all my thoughts
they're draining all of my resources
just an empty shell, wash with the tide
but i, i remember you
my eyes full of wonder
i remember you
as something i will always miss
something i can't forgive
time's arrow marches on, i pray i find peace before my time has come
i'm starting to lose hope, i'm starting to lose hope
so why's this feel not good enough? my best just feels like giving up
angel wings, they smother me
heavenly; the harbor brings
a sense of something better
as the gate opens, my body strung in rope
hanging down stares back at me
sometimes it feels like it's not worth it
fall back to easier pleasures
if nothing makes a difference
why shouldn't i be distant?
time's arrow marches on, i pray i find peace before my time has come
i'm starting to lose hope, i'm starting to lose hope
so why's this feel not good enough? my best just feels like giving up
[the sensory cortex, as represented in red, behind the central groove of the brain is the primary area for the interpretation of incoming sensory information. the association area co-ordinates this information. the sense of touch involves the stimulation of receptors in the skin. the most superficial receptors are found in the epidermis. they are the three nerve endings that respond to touch and pain]
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4. |
good enough
05:56
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replay, still on that level
run town, touch ground, im the new devil
still running from demons, concealing all these secrets im keeping
honestly dishonesty is my undoing, one chance i'll destroy the day
another bump, never had enough; god's game but we all play
gonna start thanking everyone for everything
cause all this life is work, crawl on hands and needs
and find the trees for shade, relentless sun for forty days
the war still going but the soldiers went and put their weapons down
it's all appearances and smiles, everyone get wild
born lonely, only child, my face never hold a smile
who i pray to now?
empty eyes still bleed
the secrets that youkeep
need to know if we
are good enough
hard life, just another long night
hot knife in my veins, make my blood feel like ice
i could cry over times that i'm best to forget
but replay in my head, ballpoint silhouette
got a gambling mind; take one, take two, what's odds on survival
check in as the night roll, crowd burning up, too much light, keep my eyes low
party with demons, see my angels leaving
this culture that i'm steeped in ain't happy unless i'm steaming
so i down another and i down another
fuck the bathwater, gonna drown the mother
float down the river, never run for cover
cigarette wet so i light another
is it all my fault? decisions made like i tied the knot
love me do or love me not, escapism, it's all i got
don't know what i'm running from, but know what i'm running to
don't know what i'm supposed to do
eyes bleed this mushroom blue
self destruct, my spiral true
premonitions of dead religions
face my maker with this hand i'm given
put it all on black and i let it ride
ain't got hope for the other side
tied my rope, damn near hope i choke
last will read by oscilloscope
memories all my favourite lines
locked behind these empty eyes
empty eyes still bleed
the secrets that you keep
need to know if we
are good enough
and i could not tell you
the places i've been
locked inside myself
never to be seen
bon voyage, my own mirage
incandescent, torch the stars
walk on water pray that shore comes
know i soon will find
the flaw in our design
the flaw in our design
search for hope, a knotted rope
floor drops out, i'm fine
it's just these empty eyes
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5. |
worst of it
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there's a path that i take that sentences me to you
all the thoughts that i fake, i'm just trying to relate
are you with me? are you with me now?
i'm feeling the worst of it
the last rain of summer, i'm jumping through puddles
my ripple is washed away
and i can't keep wondering what is this conundrum
i find myself in again
and night it gives break to days that just seem to repeat themself
but i keep waking up, waiting for better luck, but it never changes
current crashes to waves
wonder why i came
not looking for friends just better places
to waste my time
i'm feeling the worst of it
[rapid eye movements can be measured by placing an electrode on each side of a sleeping persons eye. eye movements between the front and the back of the eye cause changes in the electrical potential, which can be recorded on a moving band of paper. a recording of a person undergoing a dreaming phase of sleep, as illustrated here, shows the only stage at which rapid eye movements occur. this recording is of stage three sleep, which is dreamless. this recording shows a person who's eyes are closed, and who is in a relaxed state. from the optic chiasma, the information passes via the optic tracts to the lateral geniculate bodies, where perception of depth occurs; and then on to the optic radiation, which transmits the information to the primary visual cortex, situated in the occipital lobes. the primary visual cortex is responsible for the perception of objects in space and their relationship to each other, as well as the perception of light and shade]
i'm but a leaf in your book
i'm just a line with no hook
i am but a wave to your shore
how long must i wait until you're sure?
wait until you're sure of me?
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6. |
make a wave
04:22
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this road i walk alone is paved with accidents
i keep on trying to let go
even the ocean knows
how matter how small the stone you throw
all ripples make a wave
all these ripples make a wave
slowly light infects my life
in every crack it can find
my reservoir runs dry
so build a dam, protect the cross
only try to save my heart
i feel the shadow rising
but i'm not hiding, not hiding now
but i'm not hiding, not hiding now
all these ripples make a wave
my road i walk on
my road i walk on
my road i walk on
my road i walk on
my road i walk on
all these ripples make a wave
all these ripples make a wave
all these ripples make a wave
all these ripples make a wave
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7. |
blind
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old love never dies time only stokes the flame
dormant as they lay, and try however may
when you get too close it burns
old love never dies, ivy crawls up however bleak
friends that turn to enemies
no love lost
is this the way that we should be?
so distant; but i still feel you breathing
is this all that comes of me?
a river to the sea
my inability, i'm too blind to see
blinding my thoughts
losing all i’ve got
i don’t wanna let you go
you and i were destined to glow
i feel like orpheus
the way that i would go to hell and back
to hold you again
i would trade it all away just so i could pull you in
and share an embrace
but you can’t bare to even glare at my face
wish i could build a bridge
over this chasm between us
this wasn’t within
the list of our prior agreements
i’m so alone
i don’t know where to go
or who to call
‘cause you were all
i ever had at night
feel like saul before paul
‘cause i’ve lost my sight
i’m blind
i’ve lost the vision
i don’t know how to handle this division
is this the way that we should be?
so distant; but i still feel you breathing
is this all that comes of me?
a river to the sea
my inability, i'm too blind to see
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8. |
stars
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i am not the one to call on
never been too good at keeping touch
i'm just a crutch
all the times i said i'd be there
just to disappear without a trace
my mistake, there's nothing left to blame but me
we will never share the same stars
we will never share a heart
we're laughing at the ghosts that surround us here now
can't you see the stars?
and as the mirror breaks
the luck we had it dissipates
the light reflecting on my floor
you stood there once before, you looked up at the moon and you smiled
why don't you smile like that no more?
(they don't love you like i love you)
we will never share the same stars
we will never share a heart
we're laughing at the ghosts that surround us here now
can't you see the stars?
[the anatomy of the hypothalamus includes the core of the hypothalamus, the fornix, a bundle of nerve fibers which carries messages associated with memory from the limbic system, the mammillothalamic tract, which is involved with the synthesis of emotions, the control centers, and the hypothalamic artery which conducts oxygenated blood to the hypothalamus]
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puzzle piece
05:12
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i walked a thousand lonely miles
just to see the point of it
as i crossed the valley, i could not admit
i am just a piece of something greater than me
looking for my purpose
i climbed to the mountain top
lost my way and i fell off
should i wait for better?
i am just a puzzle piece
i am just a part of this
but i won't help you see clearer
i'm a scratch in your mirror
i am everything you need
but i am not the answer, i am not the answer, i am not the answer
i am not the answer
(i am losing, i have lost it, i am just a part of this
i am losing, i have lost it, everything i ever wanted)
at the end of the road
(you've loved)
you see the light
(you've lost)
and you ask yourself
(you've loved)
was it always that bright?
(you've lost)
is it not blinding you
(you've loved)
the way it always blinded me?
(you've lost)
sometimes it feels like the only thing i see
incomplete; i ask you
be gentle with me
you say don't worry
gentles all you can be
but where is that now?
that i need it most?
all of my waves lap endless to the coast
(you've loved, you've lost, you've loved, you've lost)
i am just a puzzle piece
i am just a part of this
but i won't help you see clearer
i'm a scratch in your mirror
i am everything you need
but i am not the answer, i am not the answer, i am not the answer
i am not the answer
(i am losing, i have lost it, i am just a part of this
i am losing, i have lost it, everything i ever wanted)
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10. |
ripple
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i am but a ripple to the world
i make my wave, i leave my mark
i am but a ripple to the world
i am not the one you want
i am but a ripple to the world
a single drop, that's all i was
i am but a ripple to the world
i'm not so different from the waves that you ride home
i'm not so different from the ways i used to know
and i don't know what can be said
and i don't know what can be said
my body's laying on the riverbed
my body's lying on the riverbed
[fear is one of the most extreme emotional feelings and, like all extreme emotions, is accompanied by physiological changes in the body. this illustration shows how the body prepares itself for fight or flight; when in a highly emotional state, the initial signal comes from the brain which spur the body to release adrenaline into the bloodstream. this then triggers off a series of interrelated responses in the body. the mere thought of fear activates the frontal lobe of the cerebral cortex, which stimulates the hypothalamus into action. the hypothalamus, positioned in the brain, activates the suprarenal medulla. the suprarenal medulla releases adrenaline into the bloodstream and numerous responses in the body ensue. the pupils in the eyes dilate. the pacemaker of the heart. the tiny area of specialised nervous tissue in the right atrium sets the heart beating around 70 times a minute. without it, the heart would beat only 40 times per minute, which is too slow for the body's needs. the pacemaker, or sinoatrial node, regularly sends out nerve impulses which spread through the two atria, causing them to contract. from the atrial ventricular node, the contractions spreads down special conductive tissue - the bundle of hiss - causing the ventricles to contract and pump blood out of the heart]
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11. |
equilibrium
06:58
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i don't know how to say this
i don't know what it is
it's not that my mind is racing
it's more out of thoughts to give
everything is fading
from a life of grayscale
and the last grasp of colour is
a rose that escapes my grip
now i wonder where the feeling is
now i wonder where the feeling is
that brought me back so many times
from the edge could've been divine
now i see, there's nothing more
lying on the bathroom floor
i dreamt of swimming with the angels
floating solumn down the river styx
but every time i felt it
a plea emerged from my lips
so tell me where have the words gone?
show me where i let my body down
there is only one choice i have found
i know there was nothing i could do to save you
because i can't even save myself
staring down the shadow that became you
shuffling the hand i'm dealt
it's a fact of life that we have to die
i hope i see you on the other side
it's a fact of life that we have to die
i hope i see you on the other side
i came to this world with nothing
and i'll leave without the ones i loved
apologies don't make up for nothing
so why'd i try to offer one?
fruitless in the trials i face
fruitless to help myself
so tell me where have the words gone?
show me where i let my body down
show me where have the words gone?
there is nothing i can say now
my ripple's lost to the waves now
(i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry)
[was i good enough?]
[to function properly, the cell must maintain a stable internal environment - therefore transfer of materials has to be achieved without an excessive build up of chemicals. when particular molecules are needed, for example, glucose, the cell will take these in and discard other materials to preserve equilibrium.]
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if there's no shade in the shadow of the cross then god don't know my name
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